I guess there comes to a point in your life when you suddenly stop in your tracks and take a look back at how far you've come and what you've been doing for the past few years of your life. And you realize, aghasted, that your life is becoming more and more miserable. Sometimes, you toil away your youth doing stupid, meaningless things and the benefits you reap are perpetually nonexistent. I should take a breather and get away from school, like what those kids do in mangas. Run away, to a place unfamiliar to you and clear your head. You'll feel much better. Getting cooped up with school work is so not healthy. Overwork causes depression, depression in turn causes reluctance. Reluctance in doing things because you're so exhausted, like a dim candle light with the darkness slowly closing in onto you. Your brain refuses to function. And this impedes your coordination and painfully sucks you dry.
You become devoid of emotions. You forget even how to cry.
I need more time to pull myself together and rekindler my love for art again. Shockingly, I loathe everything I do. Nothing seems complete in my eyes.
I'm procrastinating again...just refusing to face reality. Let's start afresh tomorrow!
